Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Vertebrae

Last week I entered the classroom of my 17 year old bilingual students. I stood in front of them and started talking : “Good morning,. Everybody sit down , open your books” And then I noticed her, A.
A is a 17 year old students that came from Romania a few years ago. Her Spanish is perfect and she actually helps her mum with paperwork and finding work as a cleaner in different places. She has this disease the name of which I ignore and which makes her body a hip of lifeless twisted bones and muscles. She can only move her head. She writes with her mouth and the teacher has to pass the pages of her books. She is intelligent and has no psychological disability whatsoever. I looked at her and said
-Good morning A. How are you?
-Fine- sh answered happily
-I see they have not come to get you.What class have you got now?
-English.
-Would you like to stay or would you like us to take you there?
-I'd rather be taken there- she said smiling
-Ok...so..could somebody please help A. to get to her class.
And so this boy got up, put her things in her bag and took her to her classroom.

My school is especially adapted for physically disabled children. We also have some mentally disabled ones, and sometimes a combination.
There is L, who is 13, and it is like if he was 6. He gets a computer to write, because he can hardly do it, and he usually throws it onto the floor, just to have a laugh. When you ask him, he tells you this with a naughty silly childish laugh.
And there are these two girls with a corset, and this boy who did not have any problems until he went for a very simple surgery, and woke up being unable to talk, or walk or eat. And now he is learning to do all those things, but he can remember he was not like that before.

And every morning A and everybody else are there, smiling back at you when you say good morning. And everytime I walk by them, I remember how lucky I was my broken vertebrae did no affect my spine.
December 28th was the 10th anniversary of my first two broken vertebrae. The day I decided to romantically go down a slope with a silly sleigh. I remember the moment I fell, the darkenss, the coldness of the snow, the fear when the doctor said to me “ You have broken your vertebrae”, and the tense question I could hardly articulate “What does that mean?”... but I can't remember the pain.I just remember my scream filling the air while I knelt on the snow. Humans tend to forget the pain.
So this year, I celebrated the 10th anniversary of me being born again, of me being so lucky to be able to walk, and dance.

And everyday, when I go to school and stand in front of any of these kids who fight so hard, who lead such difficult lives without even thinking about it, for whom everything is three times as hard...everyday I stand there and I know I have nothing to teach them .There is nothing in the world I could ever teach them. I can only learn from them. They are the lesson to be learnt..

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

What if your date is late?

Internet dating is a complete complex universe in itself.

There are several situations in which you never know what to do. What if your date is late? How long do you wait until you decide he is not coming? or that he is not worth waiting for that long? "0 minutes? 30?
Then , after a while, you pay for your lonely beer and head home. Depending on how you were feeling about it, you can feel releif, disappointed....

But what if you are meeting him at your home? What can you do? Do you leave your own apartment? This is it... twenty minutes waiting...enough is enough... You pick your things up and leave. Or do you hide behind the door, switch the lights of and stop breathing to pretend you are not in when he knocks? You may even be able to shout " I am not in. I have left because you are late"

And if he is bringing your dinner... how long do you have to wait until you are so hungry you decide to eat?

Internet dating...what a ride!!! I am going to make myself a sandwich.

¿ Y si tu cita llega tarde?

Las citas por internet son un universo complejo en sí mismas.

Hay muchas situaciones en las que nunca sabes qué hacer. ¿qué pasa si tu cita llega tarde? ¿ Cuánto tienes que esperar hasta decidir que no va a venir? ¿ o que no merece la pena esperarlo tanto tiempo? ¿ 20 minutos? ¿ 30?
Entonces, después de un buen rato, pagas tu cereveza solitaria y te vas a casa. Dependediendo de como te sintieras acerca de la cita, puedes volver aliviada, desilusionada...

Pero¿ qué pasa si has quedado en tu casa? ¿ qué puedes hacer? ¿ Te vas de casa? " Ya está...veinte minutos esperando....Se acabó"Coges tus cosas y te vas. ¿ O te escondes detrás de la puerta, apagas las l uces y dejas de respirar, fingiendo que no estás en casa cuando llama a la puerta? Incluso puedes decir " No estoy, me he ido porque llegabas tarde".
Y si trae la cena, ¿ cuánto tiempo tienes que esperar hasta que te decidas a comer algo, muerta de hambre?

¡Las citas por interntet! ¡ Todo un viaje! Voy a hacerme un sandwich.
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